i lost my marbles

recently i feel lost...
like i have everything but i have nothing....
i'm happy but i'm unhappy...
its strange...
so i spent most of this week in hibernation mode...
reflecting...thinking...trying to pinpoint what the problem is...
and BAM...it hit me...
i need my alone time...
over the past few weeks i haven't had much time alone...
my dad is back from penang...
he's in the house all the time cramping my space...
i'm always out with friends or with my family or out for work...
there's always people around...
so yesterday i decided to do the solitary confinement thing...
and it was great...
went walking around aimlessly in a shopping mall...
had dinner by myself with my ipod turned on to some jazz music and a magazine to read...
came back and did a bourne marathon...with the family though...
but once it was over i managed to squeeze in another dvd...
had my junk food with me...donuts...doritos...coke...ice cream...
made like an upside down vegetable on the sofa...
and when i woke up today i felt completely refreshed...
all i needed was time alone to be myself...
and even though it was only for awhile...i feel brand new :)

happy birthday mindy...
i hope u made it count :)