random

such creativity :) makes me really wanna go in and rip them off. but i'm smarter than that...or should i say...i just don't have the funds for that. this was taken earlier this year during a trip to singapore. wonder when the next one will be...

why?

why would i want someone to shoot my mom you might ask?

one of the main reasons i left singapore was because my brothers needed me. the situation back home was becoming worse and someone needed to be the buffer between my parents and the kids. so being the patient and 'zen' person that i currently am i decided i should bite the bullet. be the sponge that absorbs all the shit so that it doesn't hit the fan.

but what happens when it does hit the fan? gunshots and blunt force trauma's come to mind. but i shall persevere. i shall continue to bite that bullet. i shall be the one that stands in the middle to ensure that my brothers are free from all the whining and bitching. and if i can't stop it...i can at least try to soften the blow.

*if there must be trouble, let it me in my day..." Thomas Paine

ugh...this is my moment of weakness....and the moment has passed....

someone shoot me now

i need to be shot...right now!!!

or maybe my mom needs to be shot.

can someone please shut my mom up.

Confessions of a compulsive gambler

valentine's day came and left pretty quickly. i guess the excitement of Chinese New Year made Valentine's day seem almost non-existent. partly because everyone's too busy with preparations but mostly because CNY warrants a public holiday. 2 days (hrm...to some its a week) of not having to work trumps expensive gifts and obligatory dinners and 'i love you's' anytime.

CNY has been the same every year for the past 8 years. routines have been made and little traditions have been carved in stone. i've gained a little reputation as being a gambling queen. something which i'm not very proud of but i still enjoy the game. and if enjoying the game makes me a gambling queen then i shall remain one.

pre chinese new year gambling sessions have been a bit scarce. started out with poker with some new friends...then there's the all year round chor tai ti and mahjong sessions...and yesterday i had my 2 hour dosage of dead-rami (is that how its spelt?). scarce you might say? i have toned down somewhat...or should i say everyone else has toned down which leaves me...gambling-less. gone are the days of 12 hour mahjong sessions....gone are the days where pre chinese new year gambling sessions begin during hari raya. look on the bright side...saves me some money.

will you marry me?

someone once told me that i'll never find a boyfriend...not only because i'm uber picky...but because i'm dog ugly...absolutely daft...plus i'm married to my friends. not only do they have to accept my faults and defects but they have to pass immigrations...customs...quarantine and a stringent quality control check. anyway...like i've said many many many many so many times...my friends are great. it's hard to find anyone like them...which is why i haven't made many new friends lately.

i guess that's why i am labelled as antisocial. it's not easy to get a person like me to talk to a stranger. it's not easy for a person like me to get to know someone. first of all...the person must attract my attention by using his intelligence/intellect/wit. i don't like boring people and for me...if a person can't hold a decent conversation it would be the end of the conversation. it's no surprise that i come off as bitchy or stuck up....i've been told that many times. i have to be able to click with someone to cultivate a friendship. there has to be a level of understanding and there definitely as to be some common interest....not a lot but at least some. but it's been said that we can't choose our friends...our friends choose us. we might want someone to be our friend but it's a matter of whether the other person reciprocates that determines whether we really become friends. and with my kind of attitude...it's no wonder that i don't have many friends and that i only stick to the ones that i have. but i have to admit that there are certain people that i'd like to have kept in touch with but didn't...probably because i messed up somewhere along the way. i do piss people off quite often with my erm...slightly skewed beliefs and my very direct opinions and brutal honesty.

there's a running bet going on and the odds on me to get married first is 1 to 10. there's even talk that there shouldn't be a dead line for me. the odds for me to get married period should be 1 to 10.

but hey...my dear friends...i'm truly happy for all of you. i'll be here whenever you need me. in the meantime....let's go out and celebrate!!!!

define irony

the malaysian police force is trying to promote some crime prevention campaign. go figure :P i guess that's all i can say if i don't want to be dragged to some remote island off the state of penang and dumped into a cell with no internet. oh...and the icing on the cake came yesterday when i found out that my company will be doing the designs for some of the campaign material. so in the spirit of being supportive i shall share some information that i found on the internet with everyone.

VISION
A LEADING ENFORCEMENT
AGENCY OF INTEGRITY, COMPETENT
AND COMMITTED TO WORK
WITH THE COMMUNITY

MISSION
THE ROYAL MALAYSIA POLICE FORCE
IS COMMITTED TO SERVE AND PROTECT
THE NATION AND TO WORK IN PARTNERSHIP
WITH THE COMMUNITY IN THE
MAINTENANCE OF LAW AND ORDER